This area is full of butterflies and other bugs and creatures probably because there are no peolpe around, check out the butterfly on my shoe, it was on my hand and on top of my noggin at first!!

This road is way out in the back forty about 5km into the jungle outside of Granada. At the end is a big gate to private property and on the way are some farms, not many in these parts with tranquala holes in the road and vipers in the bushes but the veiw of Laguna de Appoyo is amazing, you need to ask permission from the local resident to cross his field to get the veiw though and of course my batteries in my camera died on the way up the road, doah!!

What it's all about!!

This posting is for the person with the misconception of what addiction really is and not because there is just nothing better to do in their lives!! It is their lives and they do have alot to do!!

THERE IS ALWAYS A WALL WE HIT IN OUR LIVES!!

Trust issues are always going to get in the way of relationships, this is a fact even with people who have led normal lives, haha what the heck is normal though, last time I heard it was a town in Nevada.

Some times it takes time to realize things that are rite in front of your face but blinded by things you want or distracted by things that are more attractive at the time will stop one from going forward constructively
I've spent alot of time here in Leon relaxing and thinking about things, sometimes not so good things but this is part of the process of recovery.
People hear the word recovery and automatically think drugs or alchol but the fact remains that it is actually recovery from the way one has been thinking about life and love.
Retraining the way one thinks and how one reacts is the true process of recovery, this takes the most amount of time and is the most dangerous time during recovery, due to fact it is much easier to go back to old and familiar ways, self destruction. Dealing with people on the normal plain and being able to accept their ways even if it is different then yours and possibly completely out in left field is the challenge, for me anyway probably due to the fact I'm very analytical and have a different perception about everything I encounter.

Acceptance and patience is still the answer I believe, but still difficult with so many dumb asses out there in this world.

I´ve found some paths are over grown and difficult to see where they lead or if leading any where. In the world of addiction I´ve had regain the hunger for life to chop a new path to see what is on the other side, chop through the fear of the unknown and the what to expect. Not thinking of what I´ve allready seen and am comfortable with, THE ZERO STATE, my secure spot where I´ve allways felt safe, self lothing in pity, shame, guilt and anger with my blanket, my dope or booze!!

I´ve followed people down some pretty shitty paths and some how in most cases found myself lost and no one there to follow and no one there to hear me as I screamed out for help. Scared, lonely, angry and beaten up by the path that I was on, it broke me down and kick the shit out of me.

Reaching some of the highest points in ones life does take time and patience along with the will to reach these places, maybe for the view or just to say they can do it and have done it.

Holding on to pain and fear is not an option. A person can not be happy doing what they love to do if they hold this stuff in without facing it and or over coming it and moving on with thier lives.

Somethings you just to walk awy from and forgive the ingnorance that has blessed some peoples lives. They really don´t understand how dangerous this lack of education they have could get them into hot water one day, I found if one isn´t to quick to comment on subjects beyond thier compryhention, they remain safe from ridicual.

Pictures of the trek

Riding on top of the chicken bus could be a task but alot cooler and the breeze feels fine aswell!!!

Can you imagine this fling through the air off the top, it's two hours out boat and 200 feet out of the water.


Lava flow of may layers that indicate the heat involved at the time of eruption

Traffic was frustrating on the volcanoe




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On the way to the camp location was a journey in it self on the chichen bus and why is it called a chicken bus you ask? Well they transport live chickens from time to time on these buses.

Hike volcanoes, help street kids!!

Cosiguina was quite the amazing location, it had a view from the top of El Salvidor and Hondurus in the distance, absolutely stunning. The hike was greuling, hot, humid and constent with an elivation gain of 684m from sea level or from our camp. There were six of us in total including two guides, a couple from Montreal, three ladies, two from the British Islands, one from Texas and of course myself. It was a four hour bus ride, stopping in Chinetega to transfer buses and of course the terminals were all the way across town from one another. There wa sa storm that rolled through with thunder and lightningon Saturday nite that was insane, it felt like the storm was within arms raech, loud and certainly wet as water was of abundance in our canp, not in our tent but in the others.
The town was like going back in time, no electricity, hand pump wells and of course cattle and other animals roaming the dirt roads in numbers. A beautiful baech that was of black sand and cliffs reaching 70 feet in places. In these cliffs you could see the evidience of the mass destruction with the layers of lava flow covering everthing in it's path, petrified trees and who knows what else!!
In 1835, this volcanoe blew it's top off in a and probably the most violent eruption in the Amercas since colonization. Sitting at 872, it was over 3000m high, the highjest in Central America, then!! There's a picture of a few islands off the beach, which takes about one and half to two hours to reach, these were part of this volcanoe and the largest out there is close to 200 feet high. You calculate what kind of devistation this created and multipy it by 10, you maybe close if not very far off the mark!!!!

Life is to short to be miserable!

I've be in Leon now for 2 weeks and I find it to be a very welcoming city. The people here are friendly and the food here is good, except for that stuff that lady sells over at the mercado, man that made me feel bad. On a brighter note things are cheap here and this includes rent, taxis and tours of volcanos, which are situated every where in the area form big to small. There are also very beautiful ladies like my friend here, a dance instructor and proud mother of a very intelligant little girl, whom has mom rapped around her finger.